"have I 4gotten to smile... :-) "

I Tried for hours.....
sitting in front of d mirror,,,,,
2 move these 14 muscles of my face in a way....
it would look like a 'smile'..


Did I really 4get to smile......
was there nothing left in my life???
that could make me smile???
no alleviation, no ecstasy, no fun,,, no glee...
or was it ME who 4got 2 realize....


The beauty of things n emotions....
d beauty of expressions,,,,,
d beauty of small beginnings.....
new hopes....


Have i really 4goton 2 sense????
the sweet sense of a rose....
or the serenity of d morning sun....


Am i totally plasticized by d responsibilities....
and d monotony of life.....??


In ol dese years...of running after life....
have i left my real self behind?
have i turned into some1 new???


I used 2 be,,i remember, a girl...who used 
2 rejoice...every moment she lived...
d girl who could dance to d tunes of rain.....
who could climb up a hill...
just 2 see d setting sun,,,,
climb down again 2 feel...
his waves beneath...


A Girl whose smile was as fresh as dew....
now I stand here..
trying to smileeeeee...
trying hard for those 14 muscles to move....
trying hard to unlearn things.....
that made me dull....
complicated my thoughts,,,,,,
and ruined my heart....


I want to smile not only vd my lips,,,,
which bare my teeth for sake of it,,,,
i want to smile vd all my face,,,,
with my heart and soul vd it... ;'(