And now.....the end is near...

And so I face the final curtain....

I'll state my case of which I am certain....

I've lived a life @ its full way....

I've travelled each n every highway...

N more..much more than this......

I did this in my way....

Regrets?? I've had a few....

But then again....too few to mention....

I  did what i had to do....

N saw it through without exemption.....

I planned each charted course...

Each careful steps along the byway...

N more...much more than this...

I did it my way.....

Yes there were times am sure u knew....

When i bit off more than i could chew...

But through it all...when there was doubt...

I ate it up..n spit it out....

I faced it all n I stood tall....

N did it my way....

I've loved...I've laughed n cried too...

I've had my fill...my share of losing....

But now...as tears subside...

I find it all...so amusing....

To think I did all that...

N may I say...not in a shy way

Oh no ..oh no.. not me...

I did it my way...

For what is a man..? what has he got??

If not himself..then he has naught...

To say the things he truly feels....

N not d words of 1 who kneels....

yes.....

I DID IT IN MY WAY.....

d FACE..which i hv 2 Face...

Just as every cloud does not have a silver lining....
Every story too..does not have a happy ending...
Not every traveler finds d shore...


Your success pricks like a thorn...
Your popularity may cause a heart burn...
How to get you down...n out...
IN life...how to declare you run out...
My mind clock is ticking like a bomb....


But...that is the way life is.....
The pool of life...holds it all...
Friends and foes alike....
Learn to take it all..in your stride....


If there are foes...there are friends too...
Where there are thorns...roses are found too....   (:(

FaLteRinG....

Footsteps...fall on plastic Beaches...
How long will it be till...'NATURE' teaches....
D people who have been...for so long....
Obscuring her beauty with all their wrongs...?
Wave after...wave...of foamy slime....
Will this ever end...? 


It's never too late...or so they say...
But Nature will disprove one day....
Unless we bring some changes and rise...
With the force of a people...and despise...
All d wrong we often do....
Clean up d place n start a new...


The beaches...shall glisten vd golden grains of sand...
And clear seas...shall surround this flourishing land.....
Forests vast vd evergreen will fill....
Crops will yield food in abundance, till....
We'r a wealthy nation vd plenty 2 give....
Where man n nature in harmony live... :)

Srk's movie.."SWADESH" catharsis many emotions....flooded many minds...but d ques arises in my mind is...'for how long' ??how long a movie...or a speech..or a article..  inspires...our extreme emotions...or 4 hw long...we felt dat 'josh' in our krantikari nerves....????

m inditing ds thngs...bcz... m flng quite portent...2day...n ofcourse il describe u .. how...sooooooo...... i ws hvng my brunch... eating..my usual stuff...a bread..vd a garama garam cup of tea...my newspaper accompanying me .. (sometimes u can consider your newspaper as a butter.. if ..ur on diet...) n suddenly i cm across a news in chandigarh bhaskar..( as...i strt hating times n tribune nw..after my repudiation ;p )  dat 2 ordinary men Mr.DHYAN SINGH n  JOGINDER SINGH... ( nw they r d real heroes of their swadesh) 4m JAMMU ( KISHTWAD )  ... got inspired by srk's heroic act in swadesh...n dey actualy implemented dat strategy of generating electricity 4m hydro power in Kishtwad District...I mn mahn...!!! they seriouslly proved this thing...dat d real leader has no need 2 lead...he is content 2 point d way.....i think its ol about...those little drops of water..makes d ocean...or d little grains of sand dat makes d land......

I  mentioned portent because..nw am flng a new jordan inside me...u guys remember janardan jhakad of rockstar vahi wala.... ;) :P...being a electrical engineer ( or i shld mention a berojgar engineer )  wht m doing...m writing a blog..dreaming high...(vdout giving in..)or simply seating in frnt of another idiot box..considering myself a intelligent human being or actually... making myself a fool by draining my knowledge my skills..in d flow of air...n emotions...or compititions....

 i hv cm a long way....

to a distant place far far away..........4m where i used to live n 4m what i used to do...

life is a rosy dream...

happiness n joy aplenty.... everything dat i wnted....

everything is as i had hoped for.... everything is as i had longed for......

everything is except 4 d turmoil....
dat plagues me inside every day....

I sleep... i smile... i laugh, i play, i eat n i live
in a constant state of fear.... a fear that i did not ask for....

n one dat i did not longed for....

killing me 4m inside.... silently screaming 4 it 2 stop....

i am devoured by my own inner self...... day in and day out....

haunting n taunting me.....
time and time again..... they run helter and skelter
in d deep recess of my mind......

it’s just a state of mind......

i tell myself
hoping to erase these thoughts....
of fear dat hinges on the edge of my happiness.....

trapped inside my own mind..... eclipsed by my fear.....

tears weep without a choice
hoping to vanquish ds struggle within...

bas to dosto.... m ready in my new jordan avatar...it doesnt mean dat il strt shouting sadda hak ithe rakh... lalellla or i l strt  wearing dat long jackets but il try to inherit dat passion...dat josh...( but nt dat dard...)

i dn knw who said ds but yes..ds is a proverb...dat...don worry if u have built ur castles in d air...dey r where dey shld b... nw its a time 2 put d foundations under them.... its upto us dat weather v wanted 2 stand up n b counted ...or stand down....n b counted down....

REsUrreCtioN

Left 2 myself....
I muse on my fate...
A fate sealed with sighs n shots with tears....
D star lit heaven smiles...
Above d steep hill....
Down flows a murmuring streams...
D lazy dale sleeps peacefully nigh...
My morn was promising...
My ambitions well nigh touched d open sky...
Madly I longed 2 b a poet...scholar....and a rebel...
All combined in one....

I yearned for a happy life...
A tender husband...financial stability...
n happy faces of my belovds....
On a broader canvas I pictured my death...
A glorious death-
People weeping beside my cold corpse...
heaps of flowers and bouquets...
and....incense burning.....

But lo: This life is a parody of my expectancy....
Mine is a life of woes....pelf n fame..for which I longed...
are still...alien to me...

Have  I been able to leave a classic behind??
Or a poet of far-flung fame??
The well reaped harvest of mighty thesis...
I know that dear..heaven will not thrust immortality
Upon this poor girl....

It is a prize for nobel soul...
And what act of nobility
have I done???

I feel my hopes are veiled tears...
My dreams r cheats...
When I dip far into d future...
I see my dusty portrait...with no garland around...
Laughing at its original...
A sense of despair melts my grit...
And shake my being to its roots...

This dreary existance is but...a pestilence to my soul...
now d darkness becomes lighter...
The flood of moon beam..weaves...
A magic around me...
A morbid..desire for death...
Dearly...seizes my soul...
A down ward jump 4m here....
Will bring an easeful death...
A tired fugitive from life's battles...
Will cease to live....

Suddenly a rumbling voice from a far comes a float...
Belted by a new hope....
And an all conquering spirit...
A Heroic fortitude pervades my coward mind
And I  awake...to fight.....
To fight d odds of life anew....

REviVal...

A nice form of sadness had enveloped my existence...
I was flowing vd d river..vdout ny essence...
too wound up I continue....too tired..I tread...
looking sleepy n weary,,, I ate my soup n bread...
got a phone...but no 1 calls...
too sick..I am of walking d malls....
with a smile...I think of...those days..of disdain n relish..
fast forwarding to burn out....
a thought in slow motion I take...
need to read a good book..on a mountain in d sky..by a lake....
I  close my eyes n think..it's been long since I laughed...
like babies giggling for nothing...
flapping hands in ecstasy...
have no 1 to call a friend is not what i regret...
I  did not look for one too is what i don forget...
slogging on d assembly line..one day i would be old...
feeling bad I was not bold and just did what i was told...
I walked out of my chair into fine thoughts...put myself in gear...
resolved to try on everything...vch  I was yet to dare....
I put on d headphones...switched on d music...
rolled my eyes very fast...feeling thrilled n lucid....
its not about philosophy..bad or good...
it's about waking up,stretching out and pulling back the hood...
for these thoughts,vd folded hands, I thanked the one to revere...
it has dawned on me..it's now or never...pains are not for..forever !!