Srk's movie.."SWADESH" catharsis many emotions....flooded many minds...but d ques arises in my mind is...'for how long' ??how long a movie...or a speech..or a article..  inspires...our extreme emotions...or 4 hw long...we felt dat 'josh' in our krantikari nerves....????

m inditing ds thngs...bcz... m flng quite portent...2day...n ofcourse il describe u .. how...sooooooo...... i ws hvng my brunch... eating..my usual stuff...a bread..vd a garama garam cup of tea...my newspaper accompanying me .. (sometimes u can consider your newspaper as a butter.. if ..ur on diet...) n suddenly i cm across a news in chandigarh bhaskar..( as...i strt hating times n tribune nw..after my repudiation ;p )  dat 2 ordinary men Mr.DHYAN SINGH n  JOGINDER SINGH... ( nw they r d real heroes of their swadesh) 4m JAMMU ( KISHTWAD )  ... got inspired by srk's heroic act in swadesh...n dey actualy implemented dat strategy of generating electricity 4m hydro power in Kishtwad District...I mn mahn...!!! they seriouslly proved this thing...dat d real leader has no need 2 lead...he is content 2 point d way.....i think its ol about...those little drops of water..makes d ocean...or d little grains of sand dat makes d land......

I  mentioned portent because..nw am flng a new jordan inside me...u guys remember janardan jhakad of rockstar vahi wala.... ;) :P...being a electrical engineer ( or i shld mention a berojgar engineer )  wht m doing...m writing a blog..dreaming high...(vdout giving in..)or simply seating in frnt of another idiot box..considering myself a intelligent human being or actually... making myself a fool by draining my knowledge my skills..in d flow of air...n emotions...or compititions....

 i hv cm a long way....

to a distant place far far away..........4m where i used to live n 4m what i used to do...

life is a rosy dream...

happiness n joy aplenty.... everything dat i wnted....

everything is as i had hoped for.... everything is as i had longed for......

everything is except 4 d turmoil....
dat plagues me inside every day....

I sleep... i smile... i laugh, i play, i eat n i live
in a constant state of fear.... a fear that i did not ask for....

n one dat i did not longed for....

killing me 4m inside.... silently screaming 4 it 2 stop....

i am devoured by my own inner self...... day in and day out....

haunting n taunting me.....
time and time again..... they run helter and skelter
in d deep recess of my mind......

it’s just a state of mind......

i tell myself
hoping to erase these thoughts....
of fear dat hinges on the edge of my happiness.....

trapped inside my own mind..... eclipsed by my fear.....

tears weep without a choice
hoping to vanquish ds struggle within...

bas to dosto.... m ready in my new jordan avatar...it doesnt mean dat il strt shouting sadda hak ithe rakh... lalellla or i l strt  wearing dat long jackets but il try to inherit dat passion...dat josh...( but nt dat dard...)

i dn knw who said ds but yes..ds is a proverb...dat...don worry if u have built ur castles in d air...dey r where dey shld b... nw its a time 2 put d foundations under them.... its upto us dat weather v wanted 2 stand up n b counted ...or stand down....n b counted down....